acceptance

Hay kak! Maybe you'll not read this trashy post. But then, i dont care. I just wanna show them how lucky I am to have a such honest-somewhat your word gonna hurt you but you know it'll make a better you-friend. Almost 7 years we know each other and at the 3th year you know me closer. I bet it will be forever.
Then, thanks for our short meet up yesterday and again, thanks for your word. Sorry, I can not tell you little more bout it (again) because I know you will be know even I don't make it into word. And thankyou for your honesty yet regret-word about it, you know what? You succesfully draw a smile for me :) It feels like I am gonna make it if you tell me "its okay no problem you serve better because you deserve it more" Thanks kak, I am really sorry not to tell you what I trully feel when you say that word, when you said you were realized that each bloody body have each happiness and me as well. Even in your eyes, my happiness seems like cloudy-groomy-story, now you try to deal with it :) Thanks kak! Me love youuuuuuuu

pretty understood

Hay. Hihi its seems long time not to face you with annoyed yet funny swing mood bzzz. And yes somehow i missed the moment that just happened. You come with only God knows what happened to you mood, reply my chat with 1 or if i get lucky it could be more than 3 words you type :)) you know what? I just smilled here, no im not, im not angry with your only God and you know mood. Its just.... Simply funny, and i enjoyed it :) so, thanks for making me feel this weird feeling again and thanks to let me meet you up on your another shade again. I'm blessed :) and i have to understand you more

marhaban ya ramadan

Hay. Alhamdulillah memasuki bulan ramadan lagiii. Nggak kebayang kalau ramadan tahun ini bakalan jauh dr rumah. Sahur sendiri, masak sendiri, buka sendirian, nentuin menu sendiri :") dan sempat dibuat nangis bombay kemarin malam karena homesick parah. Dan berujung ngechat my one and only brother, mas danang, yang kemudian di telepon dan bilang "mas sayang adek, semangat" awawaw :))

Anw, i am walking on the phase of life that i never imagined before. And i jus get incredibly amazing feeling just to be miles away apart from home. And yes I have to adjust what the meaning of "home" now. Merantau is not about leaving our comfort zone, its about expand ours. And now on, i'm in the process to make this room, this routine, those people, and that office as home.

I never imagined that merantau will be this amazingly awesome! Setiap pencapaian bisa bikin bangga dan ajang pembuktian ke diri sendiri "lo hebat! Lo bisa ngelakuin ini! Proud of you!" . even di suatu titik pengen nyerah, nangis bombay tp ada suatu titik didekatnya yg bisa membalikkan keadaan. Mungkin bisa dibilang titik balik. Yg bersumber dr sebuah keikhlasan menjalani apa yg ada di depan mata. Yang bersumber pada keikhlasan untuk melebarkan zona nyaman. Yang bersumber pada semangat yang diteriakkan orang orang sekitar. Ini luar biasa!!! Hahaha

Baiklah, semoga puasa tahun ini lancaaar, bisa jd ajang titil balik buat jd lebih muslimah, jd tambah dekat sama Allah, nggak males malesan lg ibadahnya walaupun nggak ada ibu bapak yg cerewet nyuruh subuhan atau taraweh, walau nggak ada mas danang yang tak jarang masak buat sahur dan buka, walau nggak ada teman teman SMA atau SMP yg rutin ngajakin buber hampir tiap hari ada aja jadwalnya. Lets get alive!!! Hahaha With these new thing, and new me!

Semangat buat teman teman yg tahun ini juga merasakan ramadan yg jauh dr keluarga. Kalian semua luar biasaaa. Semangat! Jangan sampe tidurnya kebablasan dan nggak sahur yaaa. Biar tetep kelihatan lincyaah dikantor hihi.

Oiya, mohon maaf lahir dan batin ya semua. Semoga semakin dekat hatinya sama Allah. Aamiin