2012. Me and him almost fall for each other. And I think about my boyfriend, and his girlfriend. We ended up with my text "ini nggak bener. Kita udah ga bener. Kita bakalan jahat banget kalau nerusin ini semua" he said "kan cuma temen" "but not this close, I'm a girl and I know how she feel if she found out what we did" and until now we still be friend
2016. Me and him almost back together. But I found out that he already with her, for three months, lately. I mad at him (and her). I text him and asked for the explanation. People said "why didn't you text the girl? Just for confirmation" "no need" I said. "The problem is only between me and him. And their relationship, I don't have any right to bring those up. Thats between he and she"
2017. Just me. I almost expect too much. Even in the first time I met him. And I found out that (maybe) he has someone who (still) fall for him. Then I start blaming my self for that our-night-conversation. It just feel not right. That girl-feeling always come first. I start asking my self "what if you were be that girl, how do you feel, are you not feeling sorry for her for what you've done(?!)" And many question follow. And I tend to take a meters from him from now on.
That... Is how I respect to their relationship. That... Is how I respect the other girl. Whether she is still his girlfriend, the thirtwheeling-girl, or the ex-girlfriend. I tend to give it all to him, to solve it or at least think about it. That... Is how I survive in this cruel love life thingy. Because I know how hard its feel to find out the boy found his someone first :)
*ps: those 'he' is a different person hahahahaha. For the third one. I give you a time :) goodluck
