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Hay. Lucky me to have you as the core of my best best friend. The one who trust me a lot when everyone don't. The one who give me a word while everybody give me a hurt. Thanks for always here with all your gondes word, but I love the way you cheer me up and giggling me up :")

"Sik tabah yo cil" thats his word, the opening word for many paragraph he wrote :"))

i'm just wondering why people always named another people's life. You dont even know me, mine. You don't even there when I keep struggling through all of those obstacle. So please please I'm begging you, just stop judge me that way. Thanks!

Compliment

Hay! Almost midnight and I just can't close my eyes and got a sleep as well. Two days ago if I'm not mistaken, I got a text from someone that makes me wondering "am I that great? Am I that kind of girl?"

He just said "You're smart, kind hearted, cute girl. Someone who will be with you is the lucky one" well yeaahhh "I AM" ahahahhaa no no no I'm not really into that, I'm not that perfect. But thanks for the compliment, I really happy to hear that thing :) I just realised, I'm too precious to be with someone that I used to 'wanna be with' (well, you know who, my 6 years partner) wakakaka

Hell! Black out, damn it, I can not sleep!!! Aaaaaaaaa ibuuu

So, since this is and always be my diaries, I wanna tell about my day. Well, just typical weekdays, but today I learn a lot, like A LOT about gate. Yes gate, water gate, I hope you always remember that I'm water management engineer (syombong!) Well yeah, seems like hundreds years I didn't touch hidrolic thing and now I have to. Not only touch, but also diving into that zzz and today I got my grouphead as my lecturer as well. Well, Lourens is very smart on those thing, no doubt he is a master water management engineer from TU Delf and work for WB for many years :") TU delft, sounds like I mentioned it many times today, because I wanna be there as a water management master student as well. Dan, kata adalah doa :) aamiin

Today also my first day join the ielts preparation class. Uwuwuw So excited! Meet another people from another background, gaining knowledge together for the same goal :")) 6.5!! Go go goooo

What I've never dream about

Hay. Selamat pagi. This morning I really excited to come ro the office and do my job, yeaah as an engineer. I never imagine before that become an engineer will be that fun!!! Err... Honestly I never dream about this, though I've got my civil engineer degree. And this morning I just think to be an engineer ever after :") You never be happier than help people with your knowledge, solve the problem with something logic. Huoooo ALHAMDULILLAH

19 august

Hay. Today, 32 years ago, two people lock their heart to each other. They promises to live happily ever after together. And I'm blessed to call them my parents :)

Happy wedding anniversary Bapak dan Ibu

bapak ibu luar biasaa~~ tigapuluhdua tahun hidup bersama. Walaupun sama Allah dikasih ujian yang lumayan berat untuk sepasang penganten muda, tapi bapak ibu bisa bertahan menghasapi semuanya. dimulai pada 4 tahun pertama pernikahan, bapak dua kali cuci darah dan koma. Mata ibu selalu basah ketika menceritakan ini. Saat itu ibu rela meninggalkan pekerjaannya selama sebulan. Kata beliau ketika beliau ditanya oleh simbok (simbah) apakah beliau tidak khawatir dipecat kalau meninggalkan pekerjaan beliau, "Kalau aku ninggalin kerjaan demi ngerawat suami terus aku kehilangan kerjaan insyAllah bakalan dapet ganti mbok. tapi kalau aku ninggalin suamiku demi kerjaan dan suamiku nggak keurus, aku nggak bakalan bisa menemukan penggantinya" I dont really remember the exact sentences but more or less thats it.

ya, kurang lebih sebulan ibu dengan setia menunggu bapak dirumah sakit :") I just can't imagine if its happen to me, 28 years old, 4 years married, 2 children (2 years old daughter and a baby boy)  and they have to go through that big obstacle. Allahuakbar. Lalu Allah karuniakan kepada beliau berdua rahmat dan barakah yang tak terhingga selama 32 tahun mereka bersama, dan selamanya. aamiin

I'm so happy to be born as their daughter. I'm so proud to talk to my friend about my parents. how they do the weird thing, their jokes, the javanese attitude they teach (we still talk each other with basa krama) and another thing we did together.

The happiest moment is when a stranger told us "I like your family" Its happen when My brother got married, 2 weeks ago, in Klaten, the make-up artist told us so. she watching us argue, make a joke and laugh even in 'tighten'-ing moment (ketika diburu2 WO suruh cepet ganti bajunya, kita malah masih sempet becandaan dan berakhir saya dan mbak sita baru keluar setelah acara pembukaan selesai) wq.

Sounds like overwhelmed but it is what it is. Bapak Ibu, you successfully build this heaven.You both totally awesome! I couldn't ask for a better parents and better family in this world!

May Allah grant you thousands barakah, peace of life and health. keep being you, Pak Buk (kalau kata isyana) keep gayeng and lol! Dek Anggi sayang bapak ibu :* Keluarga sampai surga Allah ya Pak, Bu :* aamiin

Terimakasih

Hay. I just nglilir and dont know what to do, so lets write. Still feel the ambience and the atmosfir of Jogja. A whole week spending time there with many random trip and meet up and cullinary session. Epic-homesick just ruin everything last night. When my brother text me that word that makes me totally realised that he still be him. That he still there for me even he already has a wife. I'm still her little sister that he love and loved him. The text that he sent when I just touch down Jakarta (just 1 hour leaving jogja)

"Dek, terimakasih ya udah mau repot diacara kita. Kita sedih dek anggi sudah balik (ke jkt)"

Aaakkk :") I just can't resist this feeling, the feeling of blessed, the feeling of love and being loved :) Alhamdulillah. Simple words that means everything :) short text that proof everything. Because being loved is everything.

A whole week, everyday, he always asked me "hari ini meh jalan jalan kemana? Mau maem apa?" He treated me that sweet, he made my jalan2 list and kuliner list come true. He is that sweet brother! And thanks anyway for mbak nia who patiently accompany me and listen my blablablah things about me and my brother usually do in the past. Thankyou mbak nia, for always wake me up on the fajr time, right when you heard adzan subuh and not allowed me to go back to bed after that zzz. Thanks for show me the proof "jodoh ga akan kemana" by your story you told me. Thanks for making my family happier and glad to have you as my family :)

....hati

Hay. Halah judulnya malesin yaa. Hahaha lg merenungkan aja, entah, tiap baca tulisan soal orang tua gtu selalu jadi salah satu momen mbrebes mili paling epic. Sebagai seorang blogger (even blogger abal) saya yakin yg nulis tulisan yg bikin orang mbrebes mili bacanya jg mbrebes mili pas nulis itu tulisnya. Ku gitu sih :") karena tulisan yang bikin mbrebes mili adalah tulsan yg mengena dihati. Tulisan yg kata2nya keluar seperti gerakan reflek tanpa melalui otak, tp dia dilahirkan dr hati. Hati yg tulus-kejadian yg nyata dirasa.

Thats why saya selalu menganggap orang2 yg bikin sakit hati itu jg terluka hatinya, kita sama sama terluka, dan sama sama menangis. Itu jg seperti gerakan reflek, mereka menyakiti nggak pakai otak, tp pakai hati mereka, dan lagi, mereka boleh jd turut mengorbankan hatinya. Jangan dikira orang yg bikin sakit hati itu tidak sakit hatinya, mereka sama saja. Hanya saja kita memandang mereka sebagai "pelaku" dan kita "korban" padahal kita sama saja kita adalah "korban" dari sebuah kejadian yg mentakdirkan hati sebagai tumbalnya.

Oke baiklah, sepertinya saya mulai meracau lagi, mungkin efek sate klathak yg bikinnya pakai hati jg akhirnya bikin saya jatuh hati uwuwuuww apadeh ga jelas. Maafkan. But then as a conclusion, ibu saya selalu bilang untuk jangan sakit hati pada siapapun, dan act as a victim krena boleh jadi kita jg sama sama terluka dan terdaktir sebagai korban.

My Stolen Brother

Hay. Tulisan ini mungkin akan membawa mas danang dan mbak nia buat kepoin blog yang penuh curhatan ini. Hehehe malu siih tp its okay, I know that you already know me more.

Ini dek anggi nulisnya di stasiun tugu dan lg nunggu kereta datang, emmm mungkin paragraf ke tiga dr tulisan ini akan aku tulis diatas kereta. Ya, kereta yang mengantarkanku meninggalkan sebuah tempat yg menyajikan kebahagiaan dunia yg HQQ hihi. Honestly, masih sering mbrebes mili gtu tiap kali ninggalin kota ini. Apalagi hari ini, hari yang rasanya terlalu sempurna untuk berakhir.

Mas danang, mungkin ini akan jd ucapan yang entah keberapa seri mas dnanag dengar hari ini, but ini sepesial, karena ditulis oleh adek mu tercinta *hoek* adek yg selalu mas danang lindungi, yang mas danang garapi, yang mas danang manjain, yang mas danang sayang. Ya itulah yg adek rasakan selama ini, terlebih setelah merantau hahaha. Baru kerasa gmn berperannya mas danang dihidup dek anggi *hiks

Mas sekarang sudah jd kepala keluarga, seorang imam, dan adek percaya mas sanggup berperan maksimal didalamnya. Mas sekarang udah punya seseorang buat cerita udah punya temen buat jalan2 kulakan di beringharjo, udah ada temen buat nonton, temen buat jajan sate kere (OMG please dont do that things without me). Hahaha btw ini nulisnya udah didalem kereta pppft dan keretanya kyk indomaret point, padang njinglang macam outlet bolang baling popular sekaten pppft. Oke fokus, jadi mas dek anggi sedihhh nggak ada yg nemenin dek anggi lagi. Bohong ding! Wakakaka. Dek anggi senaang akhirnya mas danang menemukan someone to rely-on and struggling trough the good and the bad, through lemu and lemu banget hahaha. Mas danang sekarang nggak bisa bebas main PS sampai pagi lg. Ada seseorang yg nunggu mas danang pulang. Inget yaaa :)) ah nggak mau pesan2 dan nasehatin aneh2 deeh pokoknya adek seneng!!!

Halo mbak niaa, paragraf ini buat mbak nia. Dan pertama tama, maafkan tentang judulnya, but it is what it is. You stole my best partner in a good way! Hihi terimakasih mbak nia sudah mau menerima mas danang (koyo ngenes banget ngono ya masku) hahha. And welcome to sarana tamtama yudha family! Keluarga yg penuh plesetan dan piknik (nek selo) pppft. Mbak nia, dek anggi cuma mau pesen, tiati yaa jangan kaget kalau malam malam ada suara aneh terdengar, itu bukan suara truk tronton lewat, tp itu suara ngoroknya mas danang :)) mbak nia jg jangan takut kelaparan, mas danang jago masak (and i know you already knew about that) hahhaa. Mbak nia nggak usah takut kalau ada kecoak atau kaki seribu  mas danang bisa melawan itu, tp jangan minta mas danang buat menghadapi anjing yg njegok (halah njegok bahasane ki lho) mas danang bakalan langsung sprint :)) Thats my brother mbak and I bet you (will or already) know him more than me

Intinya, selamat menempuh hidup bersama samaaaa. Yang dek anggi tau pernikahan itu tentang komitmen. Dan yg dek anggi tau mas danang dan mbak nia adalah pemegang komitmen terbaik versi on the spot *oposih. Duh maafkan makin nggak jelas. Baiklah, yang pasti dek anggi senang sekali hari iniiii. Semoga lekas kasih ponakan yg lucu2 yaa. Yang banyak biar ramee, biar kalau piknik keluarga kita bisa nyewa bis (halah) selamat malam, selamat beristirahat atau apapun :)) hihi dek anggi sayang sama mas danang mbak nia :* kisskiss dari kereta yg entah udah sampai mana

Kebungahan 2

Hay. Today is historical day in my life *tsaaahhh. For the first time has a meeting with the client. Nervous yet excited. Prepare the presentation and learn not only on water management thing, also the little thing about geotechnical blahblah. More or les 3 hours struggling with the meeting and trying to catch up into the discussion. Im just anak bawang who sitting on the corner and try to speak up what I know. To be honest im not diving deep enough on this project. But still, I learn a lot from this meeting :))
Just a moment after touch down the office, mas boni sent me a screen capture that makes me jump to the moon *lebaaayyyyy hahaha but yes, its made up my day!

Thanks minaaa your word is really made up my mood hihihi. The happines still continue after I got a message from my friend, faza. He told me this

Yes, Im really happy to hear that fazaaa. You did it! Ga sia sia perjuanganmu selama iniii :") Doakan anggi yg lg mlempem semangat nya ini bisa kyk kamu yaaa. I'm a proud friend! Keep struggling for 2 years a head fazaa!! Keep contact and keep sharing yaa!!

So, today I feel blessed. Also, I regret to what I complain to Allah about my life. Being cheated by hisa is not a big deal laah. I have thousand reason to smile and cheer up everyday hahahahhaa :))