I'm not change, am I?

Hay. So last weekend I was hanging out with my two college friends. Yes girls. Once they told me "you are change now" this about my personality they said. I'm more liberalism, I more open and I tend to go out or discuss or curhat only on somebody I trust to. I used to curhat to everyone I met, I used to tell about me, my life to everybody I sat down with. Thats me, like a year ago :) now I'm away different.

"I'm quite surprise with all your changes. You change your self within a year is like wow. How come how could you?" she ask.It is always a pleasure to have a people around who care for you and they do care of your changes, isn't it? And after I have mitunes to think about what she said, I couldn't agree more. I do change. I tend to keep my problem my self, first. Then when I couldn't handle it I'll talking with mas danang, or ibuk or anggi. Then everything seems fine after I talk to them. But I rarely do it. i keep my problem my self, a lot. But, you know what, my life seems like less problem now then before :) I don't know why but it is what it is. Seems like growing up makes my problem going away. Either it is just go away OR I just dont want to waste my time to think about it too much.

I go with "every problem every happiness will pass by, sooner or later. So why I have to worried" I always have Allah. Allah always there anytime anywhere at it best. I admit it. Then again the word I always remember is "Allah already arrange everything in Dunya for us, but not for our Akhirat. So lets start worry about our Akhirat" Then I start worry about that. I try to not envy to my friends who get a greater job, bigger sallary, going abroad or else. I star jealous when she or he start puasa syawal, salat sunnah, sadaqah, umrah, wearing hijab properly etc etc... No I dont wanna showing of my Islamic thingy, but this post also will remain me about what is my goal. No offense, so let me write it down here.

Thats why every single time I want to upload to social media, like this post, like photos on Instagram, like twit, I always ask to my self first, what is the aim of this, why I am doing this, is this gonna hurt people, are you gonna showing of to anybody, are you wanna a appreciation, are you wanna gaining likes and became popular etc etc. So, I only save my photos, my twit, my post in a draft :)) and its a lot. Just because my answer is "I want people know that I have this wonderful and people-dream-of-life. I can do what people want to do. I get what people want to have etc etc" and all of that answers are the part of SHOWING OFF. And once again Allah doesn't like it. Allah Allah Allah.

So, I'm not that different, I still be anggi. But I keep some secret now that you don't have to know :)) nice to meet you