Thanks

Thanks for having me as Yours
Thanks for always listen my unspoken confension
No wonder if I feel blessed every single second I called Your name
Cause I know you will always listen and hold me tight as You always do
When I came to You with a problem, You gave me thousand way to close it
Thankyou for always there. Thanks for having me as Yours :)

just smile and you gonna be happy

Hay. Jadi kemarin ada anak Intern di kantor yang bilang "nggik, kamu kok senyum dan ketawa terus sih? biar orang orang tertarik sama kamu ya?"

I never expect everything for what I smile or laugh for. I just do it for what it is. To be honest, many times I heard that simillar word come up from peopple arround me "kenapa sih anggi ceria terus, semangat terus?" "kamu kok senyum terus sih cil" (I think I ever write it down here when my senior ask it so).

Kalau ditanyain begitu saya juga ga ngerti :) hehe kali gegara saya (agak lumayan) tonggos kali yaa jadinya kesannya senyum mulu padahal memang susah mingkem wakakakaka sialan. oke, seriously, I'm just who I am. udah otomatis aja gitu yaaa. soalnya kalau sayanya diem, mukanya nyente dan orang bakalan salah paaham sama saya :((

"jadi dalam teori komunikasi nggik, ketika kamu senyum sama orang terus kamu kayak antusias sama dia, si lawan bicaramu ini bakalan  melakukan hal yang sama juga ke kamu nggik, mereka bakalan yang "haay anggi apa kabra blablabla" sambil senyum karena kamu melakukan itu. kamu sengaja ya begitu biar orang lain baik sama kamu" entah kepikiran apa si orang ini ngomong sama saya begitu, saya nya cuma ketawa aja hahhaa. dan menjawab "kamu belum tau aku aja"

somehow, its relief to hear that thing come up from someone who I just met, we never talk each other intimately, he just observe what I did everyday and told me so. And I'm little bit surprissed :)) hahahaha. apa yang setiap hari ibu bilang benar benar saya lakukan "Adek tetap ceria dan semangat yaa" itulah apa yang ibu saya bilang setiap hari lewat chat kami :) and I just do it. I smile not because I'm happy, I'm happy because I smile :))

We are who we are

this photo was taken in 2011 before cave-tubing at Goa Pindul hihihi. Jay doesnt exist yet, and also I'm still on 'cabe' look pppft

Hay. Seems like long time I didn't write and my last post is about hisa (again and again), but then I won't to talk about him again on this post. I'll talk about...  Emmm wait... How do you call it? Emmm okay I cant find what should I named it but somehow, it is about my convo with my (long distance) friend by phone. 3 hours on a phone to be exact (((wow-ing plz))) hehehe

He ever met my family, whole family, bapak ibu mas danang mbak sita mas resa naifa jay and almost half day he  talk to them. Not really talk all along, sometimes we breath (what? Funny? Oh meen) sorry.  He watch how we argue, how we discuss, how we make a joke. and along yesterday's convo, many times he implicitly realized "How lucky you are to have parents and family like them" And I just can't take it more :)) Yes I am, I'm the luckiest one to growing up (and old) arround them.

though we argue many times, we yell at each other, it is always end up with sitting together and do our "plesetan" jokes. Nowdays, me, as "ragil" on my family tree-that identically with childish and endlessly egoism- have to be able to be "a mediator". Sounds like 'substantial' actor yaa. wqwqqwq but, not that serious kok. To be honest, we are normal family, we often have different perception of something. Though I am not In Jogja I have to listen when they complain about each other. Hence it changes me be like Mamah Dedeh that have to standby to listen their story and then solve it.

I like to be that important actor. Because by their trust to talk to me and ask me what should they do, I know that they think I'm mature enough to know, moreover solve their problem uwuwuuww. Am I already a lady yet? hehehe. but then again, sometimes that problem makes me sad and ruins my mood all day long. pppfttt And it becomes my problem. ehe ehe ehe. But it doesn't matter, because so far I still can handle it (even without mas mas to talk to and to curhat to). And I realized, I have to keep my familly problem my self :)

barang siapa menutup aib saudaranya, Allah akan menutupkan aibnya pada hari kiamat

 

Its a goodbye :)

Hay. Sebenarnya tidak ingin memposting ini tp karena bingung mau curhat kemana jd mari curhat kemana manaaa~ hisa. Sudah tak asing lg nama itu bagi keluarga dan orang2 disekitar saya. More than six years I know him closer but poor me its not enough to understand him more. No, i dont wanna say that its wasting time to know him, to care bout him, to stay close, to feel much pain because of him. Everything that runs into my life is blessed  either does his existency of my life. Many years fill out with laugh, dreams, tears, stories, happiness, sadness. Many years feel the love, care, fear, jealous, sad. Many years I feel he is the best and gonna be the last one. Many years I trust on him and all his (I thought its) honesty but poor me, its not. And last month i feel that our story gonna be the greatest one because we plan to go to one (or more) step further even we dont know when. At least we already talk about it. About our future, about our dream life. About jogja that gonna be our hometown ever after.pppft

5 days ago to be exact, I know what he's doing behind me. Dead air just ruin my room and I could not think clearly. All I remember was what he said last month about everything. But then, I thought of Allah, that this is how's Allah do for me just to open my eyes, to level up my life :") Allahuakbar.

But then, I pity on him at the same time. I know him even better than others for many years. He is a kind hearted person. Also he is very kind to all girls around him (this personality often light my jealousy up). This (lets say) "tragedy" successfully shock me! I could not believe it at the first time, but i have to. Everything has changes kalau kata mbak taylor swift. That person is already changes, and its hurt my heart for real.


Hi Hisa, if only you read this post and I believe you'll read it, thanks for the many years we spent together trough the ups and down. I'm sorry for being picky childish annoying partner hahaha :)) thanks for all of things you ever do for me. I learn from you alot. Thanks! Satu yang selalu saya pegang dalam prinsip hidup saya yang ditanamkan oleh kedua orang tua saya hisa, kita ketemu baik baik, kita kenal baik baik, kita berproses dalam hidup baik baik, dan kita juga harus berpisah secara baik baik yaa. Terimakasih telah mengisi masa masa remaja saya. Ini saatnya kita berproses dalam hidup masing masing. Semoga kamu bahagia dengan apa yang telah kamu lakukan :) cheerssss!!! :D

5th of june. I told him "lets take alot of picture today! Who knows this will be our last moment, together" and its come true :)