Its a goodbye :)

Hay. Sebenarnya tidak ingin memposting ini tp karena bingung mau curhat kemana jd mari curhat kemana manaaa~ hisa. Sudah tak asing lg nama itu bagi keluarga dan orang2 disekitar saya. More than six years I know him closer but poor me its not enough to understand him more. No, i dont wanna say that its wasting time to know him, to care bout him, to stay close, to feel much pain because of him. Everything that runs into my life is blessed  either does his existency of my life. Many years fill out with laugh, dreams, tears, stories, happiness, sadness. Many years feel the love, care, fear, jealous, sad. Many years I feel he is the best and gonna be the last one. Many years I trust on him and all his (I thought its) honesty but poor me, its not. And last month i feel that our story gonna be the greatest one because we plan to go to one (or more) step further even we dont know when. At least we already talk about it. About our future, about our dream life. About jogja that gonna be our hometown ever after.pppft

5 days ago to be exact, I know what he's doing behind me. Dead air just ruin my room and I could not think clearly. All I remember was what he said last month about everything. But then, I thought of Allah, that this is how's Allah do for me just to open my eyes, to level up my life :") Allahuakbar.

But then, I pity on him at the same time. I know him even better than others for many years. He is a kind hearted person. Also he is very kind to all girls around him (this personality often light my jealousy up). This (lets say) "tragedy" successfully shock me! I could not believe it at the first time, but i have to. Everything has changes kalau kata mbak taylor swift. That person is already changes, and its hurt my heart for real.


Hi Hisa, if only you read this post and I believe you'll read it, thanks for the many years we spent together trough the ups and down. I'm sorry for being picky childish annoying partner hahaha :)) thanks for all of things you ever do for me. I learn from you alot. Thanks! Satu yang selalu saya pegang dalam prinsip hidup saya yang ditanamkan oleh kedua orang tua saya hisa, kita ketemu baik baik, kita kenal baik baik, kita berproses dalam hidup baik baik, dan kita juga harus berpisah secara baik baik yaa. Terimakasih telah mengisi masa masa remaja saya. Ini saatnya kita berproses dalam hidup masing masing. Semoga kamu bahagia dengan apa yang telah kamu lakukan :) cheerssss!!! :D

5th of june. I told him "lets take alot of picture today! Who knows this will be our last moment, together" and its come true :)